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Saturday, February 02, 2008

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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

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Wednesday, November 14, 2007

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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

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Tuesday, October 10, 2006

impt .!!
for ur information;
my birthday: 19th nov =p

hmms ..
exams over liaos lerr .?
finally lorr .
guess i haven tried my best
; for certain subjects .
i still think i could have done better .
for example : geog .
i think i flunked geog . =x
seriously .
others i think can tyco pass bah .
but maths ppr 2;
is confirmed .
fail ding de =s
now exams over le .
its not really freedom bahh .
its more of parole .
conditional freedom .

; the clock goes ticking away.
it wun stop for youu .
1sec . 1 min . 1 hr .

O.M.G,
half was expected .
but the other half .
was omg .
how could this tragedy
befall me =x
how could audition break
its promise .
it extended for at least .
4 hrs .
if i counted correctly . =x
i hope it'll work tmr .
i go load it first thing
when i switch on the com .

; its a tragedy when
audi stops .
working -

fridays marking day .!
also vannesa'a birthday =D
i promised her to msg her
happy birthday at
2 am.
i noe john chen will forget
bout tht ;)
as usual . hahas .
any plans .?
marking day = resting day .
for me bah .
i'll prefer to stay in .
since i am sick and
so tired .
yupps .
but gd mahh . liddat .
i dun need wake so early .
get dragged out of bed .
and brush my teeth with
my eyes barely open.
put on my uniform
with half my eyes open .
and walk to the bus stop .
forcing my eyes open . =x
schs tiring .
i guess much of the motivation
i get .
for going to sch are my friends .
other than the early bus rides
with sean of cux (:
tmrs wed =x
i wun get to see him .
sobs sob T.T

MY BIRTHDAY .!
den i'll be finally 14 .?
feel so old liaos .
hahas . see .
time really pass too fast .
before i get to enjoy it .
its gone .
derek promised me a
maple christmas tree ..
ahh .! cant wait you noe .
the tree is super duper duper cute .!
thx derek in advance .
dun forgot wor .
nvm;
you forget i'd remind you . =D

i'd upload the pic in the nxt post =D

take cares ;

with much lurves .
cheryl .

- JuxYouNme

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Everytime We Touch by Cascada

I still hear your voice,
When you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch,
in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness,
But I dont know why,
Without you it's hard to survive
'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side
'Cause every time we touch,
I feel the static,
And every time we kiss,
I reach for the sky,
Can't you hear my heart beat so,
I can't let you go,
Want you in my life.
Your arms are my castle,
Your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry
The good and the bad times,
We've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall..
'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side
'Cause every time we touch,
I feel the static,
And every time we kiss,
I reach for the sky,
Can't you hear my heart beat so,
I can't let you go,
Want you in my life.
'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly,
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side

much loves,
cheryl <3
o8.o9.o6 (:

- JuxYouNme

Friday, September 01, 2006

sorry ..
dui bu qi heartx ..
maybe things would be btr this way .
i did many wrong things .
not as great and
perfect you thought i was .
dun get upset over me .
its not worth it .
why does it seem like .
i've been saying many sorries .
recently .
all these setbacks ..
were they meant to perpare me
for worst ones .?
i think i am falling ..
i feel like jux jumping down
from tht building .
and end it all ..
but i've got so many wishes .
i haven fufil
yet .
so many things i haven do ..
i've only got once to live .
but once seems too long .
so much to say .
but .
some .
mayb its btr not to be said .

complicated ;
irritated ;

ilovedyou .

cheryl ;
999heartx finished .

- JuxYouNme

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

sianed ..
dad caught me sneaking today xp
but lucky nvr say anything ..
den i think btr off com bahhx .
least he tells my mum .
den ;
i'll be as gd as dead =p

missyou darling . (:

- JuxYouNme

Friday, July 14, 2006

thought bout it ..
many times over ..
and i knew wher i was going
wrong .
but those were jux white
lies .
i didnt mean to hurt anyone .
but in the end ..
i make myself more
miserable .
issit worth it ..
being so nice .?
being nice is wrong .
becux it doesnt pay to be
kind ..
stressed up .
fucked up .
i feel like i am burning inside .
to mummy :
can you gimme a break .?
its not nice being me too .
scolding doesnt help me
one bit .
i hate you .
for bringing me to this world .
which i nvr belonged to .
one tht i wish ;
i rather not exist .
mayb things would
have been btr for you too .
you would not be stuck with
me all day ;
not knowing what to do .
i am a pain .
i am cux of trouble .
jux let me be .

suddenly ;
my world seems to take for a change .
maybe its nice .
but to me ;
i'll rather not have all those .
it jux gets me more stressed up .
my mum says i am childish .
showing my temper when she scolds me ,
i'll rather remain as a child .
she said .
tht was the process of growing up .
i have to learn .
but if learning was such a dif process .
can i choose not to .?
can i rather be like when i was young .
not knowing anything ;
may be a gd thing .
cux its always the truth tht hurtx .
she was right bout many things .
but cant she jux leave me alone .
if this is the way she cares .
can she dun care bout me .?

lifes different now .
its jux different .
mayb its for the better .
but why does it get me more '
stressful instead .?

muchh lurves

; cheryl <3
sean .

- JuxYouNme

Friday, July 07, 2006

he was right ..
but was i wrong .?
if feels as if ;
i am on my own ,
lost .
lost in the middle of
nowhere ;
i couldnt find myself ..
suddenly .
my life took for a change ..
it didnt turn out the way ;
i thot it would .
i knew i was wrong .
i knew i shouldnt have .
but .
its all too late .
maybe things were suppose to be
this way .
i'll jux let it be .
i dun wanna try to make it btr
anymore .
its useless .
and tiring .
i dun feel like doing anything
anymore .
i jux wanna ;
feel close to you .
to make the worst mistake ;
is to noe that you are
making one .
but you still make it .
i dunno whats happening to me .
jux let me be ;-
so many things flashing thru my mind .
jux what did i do .
wrong .
that i've to end up liddat .?
was being too nice wrong .?
i dun understand .
my world's so complicated .

cheryl //*
<3 sean .

turned upside
;down .

- JuxYouNme

Friday, June 23, 2006

yo . back .!
another post le ..
sianed ..
i did wrong things again ..
haixx ..
ystrdy i fall asleep at ard 245 .
suddenly ;
i didnt feel like sleeping .
i felt like crying instead ..
i cried till i fell asleep ..
my eyes are so red today .
OMG .
haix ..
i dun feel like blogging anymore .
i am sick and tired of life .
this time ;
i am on my own . =x

my dear .
dui bu qi .
wo bu shi gu yi de .
zhi shi wo .
wo zhen de bu dong gai zhen yang .
wo shou bu liao le .
wo ye bu xiang zai zhe yang xia qu .
bu neng tuo le .!
ji de kie .?
wo zhi ai ni
; zhi you ni yi ge .
you le ni jiu
rong ren bu xia bie ren le .
woaini (:

muchh loves ;

cheryl (:
ilu .x

- JuxYouNme

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

yo .!
changed skin ler ..
tired of the old skin ..
hahas ..
today maple down cux of
the patch ;
den decided to change
skin lor ..
yupps ..
wahh ..
den when i scroll down then i realised ;
i posted so many times le ..
so scary ..
then read thru some of the previous
posts ..
when i read them ;
my feelings when i wrote them ;
returned ..
some happiness ..
others ;
misery .?
my daddy always asks me ;
when i'll grow up ;
so that he can relax life ..
i wish ;
i'll nvr grow up ..
to grow up ;
many things you would loose ;
but you gain experience ..
to know too much ;
sometimes .
you'll rather not know truth ..
why is the world liddat ..
why cant everyone be simple ..
even in the mind of my little sister ;
contains so much negative thoughts .?
its jux so complicating .
mayb i'll understand someday ..

cheryl (:

iloveyou .

- JuxYouNme

Monday, June 19, 2006

yoyo .!
yayness ;
i am finally home (:
missed you all loadds .
over there still fun bahh .
quite . x)
i was there ,
but i knew my heart was here .
hahas .
recently .
my ballet cher .
selected me for a stupid ,
competition .
then i asked my mum to help me opt out (:
hahas .
heng wors .
ystrdy mummy wasnt in a gd mood .
kept scolding me while i was talking on the phone .
=x
so pissed .
whatever .
talking bout her = waste my breath .
oh yar .
aft choir on wed .
i am going to get PIZZA =D
YAYNESS .
finally .
and darling .
you still owe me one too (:
okiies .
i dun feel like blogging anymore .
cya (:
tata ~

and it seems like ;
all of a sudden , you're so gd to me .

muchh lurves ;
cheryl <3

ilu . sean (:

- JuxYouNme

Saturday, June 10, 2006

yoyo .!
back for another post ..
sorry worrs ..
so long nvr come blogg lerr ..
parents lor ..
dunno whats got over them luh ..
dun care them le luh ..
think of them then so angry x)
everytime i use the com ..
den my damn sis will say :
jie jie daddy says you cant play maple .
idiot .
feel like killing her .
i treat her so gd then she liddat .
conclusion : lifes nvr fair (:
hahas ..
so much to say ..
so long nvr blog le ..
but dunno where to start from ..
and haix ..
dunno when my sis will tell me to stop playing
again .
damn her .
hehex ..
so happy x)
tmr performance lerrx ..
so cool lorr x)
i acting as fairy of joy ..
zzz .
i joyful mehhs -.-
den so funny lorr ..
all the steps we do .
are all the steps we nvr learn bfore de .
den learn alot things .
yupps .,
but at the beginning v painful .
toes bled .
lols ..
but now .
its all worth it bahhs .

- JuxYouNme

Monday, May 29, 2006

" ni zui ai de ren zui hou
ye ke neng bu shi ni yi qi sheng huo de ren .
ni zai yi qi de ren .
ye xu bu shi zui ai ni de ren "

i still remembered the days .
the old times .
you were my first .
those nice times .
those memories .
i knew i fell with you so deeply .
maybe more than i ever shld .
bcux i knew you were nvr thinking
of being with me .
you were so near to me ,
but i could nvr feel you here .
cux your heart doesnt belong there .
it doesnt belong to me .
whats the use of having you
when you couldnt feel .
the feelings .
the bitter endinggs ;
i was naive then .
i only knew i love you .
i didnt care bout anything else .
we were perfect for each other .
but forget it .
we're over .
love once gone .
its gone forever .
so what if i once really loved .
its all useless .
becux its all in the past .
the hurt you have incurred in me .
i dun wish to mention anymore .
" becux of you .
i am afraid . "
becux of you .
i did many things .
wrong ones .
becux i didnt noe how to let go .
you were the reason .
why certain things didnt turn out
as i planned .
sorry .
i've been thinking bout it for a long time .
its clear we missed our chance .
and its time we moved on .
we should nvr pick up from where we
left off .
becux even if we do .
we wun last .
when i said i've let go .
i mean it .
i am not like you .
if i make promises .
you noe i mean them .
i've moved on .
and i nvr regretted this .
becux i know .
he would nvr break my heart like you
did .
and the most impt thing ;
ilovehim (:
forget it .
you're too late .

muchh loves ;
cheryl -

- JuxYouNme

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fakeA smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

- becux of you

kelly clarkson .

- JuxYouNme

Friday, May 26, 2006

arghh .
i hate today so much .
bad day =x
first ,
today in sch ,
got back result slip ..
so disappointed with myself luh .
v sad lorr .
den ltr yang lao shi
ask us hand in the declaration form
thing .
i forgot to let parents sign ..
den she say either go home
get it signed
or ask parents come sch sign .
den in the end ,
i told her i will fax over to the sch .
so settled for then .
den went to eat with ethel
yiling vann and matthias .
then at least i forgot bout my result
thing luh .
then reach home le .
first thing ,
on com ..
forgot about faxing the stupid
declaration form to sch .
den 4 plus liddat ..
yang lao shi called me .
said mux fax over .
i thot reminder ..
okays ..
then continue playing ..
how i noe she mux wait till
all hand forms handed in then
she can go home .
den ard 15 mins ltr ,
she called again lor .
den i hurry go pluck my fax machine .
yea .
den the fax machine old le .
long time nvr use .
den alot prob .
cannot fax over .
between me trying to fax over
the paper .
and aft i faxed .
she called me 5times .
keep scolding me .
den i also on the phone with my
mum ..
ask her how to fax ..
den still cannot .
den in the end realised ,
cannot talk on the hse phone while
faxing the paper .
stupid luh .
den in the end my dad wake up
and help me fax over lor .
den settled finally luh .
take so long .
tonite come home
sure bei mummy scold le .
say i everything nvr earlier do .
last min den come panick .
den results .?
ahh .
so much more scoldings to endure .
i think i am better off
dead /

conclusion : life jux sux .

cheryl .
and iloveyou so (:

- JuxYouNme

Saturday, May 20, 2006

sian-ed ..
nth to do ..
i sent only a msg today ..
and it was for
you .
hahas ..
3 days .!!
since i smsed you le .
haix ..
miss you so muchh .
when will your phone
be okay .?

cheryl .
- nth much ;
i jux miss you so .

- JuxYouNme

Thursday, May 18, 2006

failing =x
cant stand it .!!
failed bio and phy =/
disappointed ,
of cux .
cant stand the thot that
i studied .
and i FAILED .
wth luh .
i knew i nvr could have
failed bio .
I COULNT .
cux i studied bio
inside out .
and why did i fail .
cux they were all careless
mistakes .
argh .
i counted .
if there were no careless mistakes .
and i concentrated .
i would have gotten 5-6 marks more .
disappointed in myself .
phy .
not so bad .
cux i wasnt gd in physcis
afterall .
but .
still .
i didnt study physics .
cux recently jux studied for
modular .
i shld have read thru the
chapt .
den mayb i could have
scored one more
stupid .
mark .?
den i would pass .?
chem . chem . chem .!
i need to pass chem .
if not .
i will be deep shit .
haixx .
pray hard for me (:
and today also got
back eng .?
yuppx .
and i realise .
i deproved .
abit .
but its still .
deproving =x
whats wrong with me .!?!
haix .
everything like so cham
liaos .
sci . cux i was tired .
cux the night bfore
i already could not concentrate .
but eng .?
haix .
dun say le luh .
and during the exams .
for sci .
i knew i was miles away =x
i wasnt thinking how to do
the qns .
i was thinking bout you .
hahas .
cant be help .
so .
i shld jux blame myself . =x

cheryl .
and iloveyou .

- JuxYouNme

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

whoos .!
exams finish lerrx .
hmms .
happy (:
but friday getting back alot papers lerrx .
afraid i wouldnt do well =/
haix .
at least i've tried my best (:
its a nice feeling studying .
and then all tht you've studied came out
for the test .
sense of acheivement (:
so cool .
i dun study all year round =x
sometimes when i am not
in the mood ,
not even for tests .
and when i receive the paper .
my mind goes blank .
and when i start scribbling away .
it isnt writting the answers .
its thinking of what crap
i can put in there .
so tht script would not look
blank .?
lols . at leaste i wrote smth .
one of the few times i've really studied hard for the exams (:
lols .
and i know why
i studied .
hahas .
ystrdy i was really happy .
tht today was the last day of exams .
though i wasnt in the mood to studyy le .
but now .
exams over .
i wished .
exams werent over yet .
yet another reason .
thts hidden beneath me (:
oh yar .
my hp bill coming soon lerrx .
in another weeks time .?
ard there bahhs .
if this time exceed le .
i can say bye bye to my
phone liaos .
=x
last months bill .
i dunno if i will exceed .
seriously .
i think i would x)
but this month .
( i mean , if my phone not confiscated
luh )
i wun exceed at all .
positive (:
ystrdy hmms .
guess what time i slept .?
2 am .
yes . 2am .
i saw the clock . it was 2 am .
i couldnt get to slp .
was thinking bout alot of stuff x)
i was thinking bout you .
it wasnt abt what happened ystrdy .
its like .
hmmms .
i know i loveyou .
and i know you care .
i know you meant what you
say .
but .
smth is jux amiss .
i dunno what i can do .
and
in each and everyday .
i jux fall deeper and deeper in
love with you .
all i really wanted
was to be wtih you =x
'dunno what to do
if i ever loose you .
and
iloveyou so '

cheryl <33.x'
cravings (:

- JuxYouNme

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

long time nvr come blog liaos =x
sian-ed .
nth much to blog everyday (:

exams started lerrx ..
haix ..
so far everything still okays bahhs .
think i will pass most of them .
but i am sure ;
i will flunk my history .
again .
lost count of how many times lerrx =/

5th may - eng paper 1
1oth may - eng paper 2 , hmt paper 1
11th may - history , hmt paper 2
15th may - literature , maths paper 1
16th may - geography , maths paper 2
17th may - science , eng paper 3

hahas (:
schedule of exams x)
tmr last 2 papers to go .
and i am already set to mapl-ing mode (:
cant seem to concentrate .
now what time ler . i still got lik chem haven study .?
and crap . physics . i need browse thru .
i like cant rem alot things le lehhs .
i hate my memory .
remembering things i shouldnt rem .
and not remembering the things .
i should =x

YAYS -
cant wait till after exams (:
i wanna be with you .
a lifetimes not enuff for me to love you
enough .
for i really LOVEYOU so . <33

much loves .
cheryl . <33.x'

- JuxYouNme

Sunday, May 07, 2006

nice record of talking on the phone (:
i cant believe myself
sitting on the floor for so long x)

at 4.34 am .

- cheryl .
and iloveyou so . <33

- JuxYouNme

Friday, May 05, 2006

iloveyou .<33

x. cheryl .x

- JuxYouNme

words dun mean alot .
promises werent meant to be
broken .
those words that they promised ;
jux wernt meant to be promised .
when she is upset .
doesnt he know
all she wants was to be by his side
lies on his shoulder ,
and cry for as long as she wants .?
jux what was he thinking .

upset -

would i end up like her .?

cheryl ;
and iloveyou so . <33'

- JuxYouNme

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

happi-fied (:
cux hes happy ((:

- cheryl <33

- JuxYouNme

i like blogging .
but i dun like people i know reading my blog .
dunno why =x
regretted telling you somethings .
regretted writing my previous post .
i juxx feel so bad .
am i .?
i hate life .
i really do .
lifes nvr fair .
at least .
jux now for me ..
inside .
it really hurtx so much .
i jux need you to take away my pain .
so confused .
i knew i couldnt do without you .
haixx .
got so much more say .
but jux not in here .

cheryl ;

beyond redemption . iloveyou so .
too much =x

- JuxYouNme

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

back (:
haixx .
whys life so complicated .
why cant there be no problems ;
and everyone jux be
happy .?
i walked thru' the rain today .
i didnt mind the rain .
at least they made
my almost - crying eyes .
less obvious .
i wasnt angry ,
i swear .
i was upset .
i wished i didnt care .
but i knew i coudnt .
i knew i should have talked it with you .
but probably .
it would make things worst .
i really dunno what to do .
first time i am lost ,
without you .
and i gotta face this on my own .
jux whats this .
i know what she said is true .
cux' i saw
you did smth liddat
in front of me .
but .
what i really wanted to noe was .
were they out of affection ,
or were they jux
what you always do .?
i dun wanna keep
assuming .
dun wanna keep guessing .
and consoling myself .
do you really love me .?

sorry i didnt reply your sms .

cheryl .

- i lost control of myself .

- JuxYouNme

Troubled .
I am tired ,
I wanna slp .
More to be said ltr (:

- cheryl .
'ever so confused .

- JuxYouNme

Friday, April 28, 2006

first things first (:
modular test sill okays bahhs .
think i will pass .
hopefully .?
gladd tht ystrdys effort .
didnt go down to the drain .

haixx .
hes still upsest .
i know it .
cux' i feel it .
but no matter what happens .
i will always go thru' it with him (:

dunno if i should be angry .
jealous , or upset .?
i trust him .
of cux i do .
angry .
why should i get angry ,
when i noe he
doesnt like her anymore .?
jealous .
what right did i have .
upset .
i wasnt upset .
i was jux ..
disappointed .

so many things falling onto me .
i jux feel so heavy .
my own share of problems .
plus my friends .?
haix .
i noe i will jux break down someday .
when i could take it no longer .

but till then ,

smiles ((:

if time spent with you wasnt enough .
i want you to know i think of you ;
every other moment .
if time spent with you was ever enough ,
it came nth close to the way ,
i want you .

cheryl #
l u r vv e .x

- JuxYouNme

Thursday, April 27, 2006

haixx ..
tmr modular test le ..
and i like barely understandd anything
about that PHYSICS .
crap .
what to do .?
study (:

sianx .
dunno what to say ;
also dunno what to do .
jux want him to be happy (:
lost without you -
hurts me so much to see you
in pain .
i rather i be the one .
i jux need you to be happy .

- cheryl .

65o more heartx (:

- JuxYouNme

Friday, April 21, 2006

nice ((:
two posts in a dayy .
cux' its his birthdayy x)

ha .
okays .
headaches .!
mux have been thinking too much ;
bout that .
wahahahas ;
anyway .
i've found myself ,
an ans .
guess so .

iloveyou .
2h 30 mins more .

cheryl #

- JuxYouNme

Thursday, April 20, 2006

todays the dayy ((:
went to sch like normal .
he missed bus T.T
alot things happen today ..
alot i wanna say ..
confusedd .
whats holding me back .?
decisions are tough .
i dunno what i should do .
or what should i say .
or should i jux do nth .?
all i knew was ;
i really love you so .
all i ever wanted was you .
all i ever need .
all i ever thot of .
none other than you -
jux whats happening to me .?
cux' i m afraid .?
history would repeat itself .?
I WISHED I KNEW .
i know .
i jux know .
he would be different .
but would we ,
would we be together in the end .?
at least .
i know you mean what you say .
being with you ;
was all i could dream of .
but why issit .
WHY ISSIT .
like that .?
todays your b'dae .
i hope i didnt ruin it all .

maybe i shouldnt hesitate .
b'cux i love you so (:
nth will go wrong with you

ilu -
sean <33

today , 21st april . ((:

- JuxYouNme

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

haix .
confused .
its tiring keeping so much within me .
my worlds tearing apart .
so much i need to say .
yet . i could not .
its all inside me .
they`re driving me nuts .
jux what should i do .
truth ;
they jux make things more difficult
i wished .
i didnt knew all these .
they jux make me .
lost ;

cheryl #

i need you so badly ,
dying without you right here b'side me .
you`re my only one .

ilu ;
sean <33
2 more days, 21.o4

- JuxYouNme

Monday, April 17, 2006

4 more days .!

- cheryl .

- JuxYouNme

Thursday, April 13, 2006

8 more days ((:

[x] . cheryl .

- yes , i love you .
- yes i do .

- JuxYouNme

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

back to blogging (:
long time since i blogged .?
ahahas .
blame it on the com x)

things been getting along fine ..
hes all but forgotten .
i m jux glad tht i have
moved on .
hes jux ignoring me .
i know it .
forget it -
maybe hes jux angry with me .
i dunno ;
god knows .

the painful past ;
erased from my memory .
i felt so free of burden ;
so light .
nothing to hold me back anymore .
all those unwanted feelings .
they dun exist anymore .
it was all thx to you (:
Lets start anew .
i really love you .
i guess so much that nothing
seems to matter anymore ;
with you here with me .
nth seems too much
for me to bear .
you are jux everything
my lyfe`s nth without you .
without you ;
i am lost .
i wouldnt noe what to do .
cuz all that i did .
i knew i did them all for you .

cheryl #

- ilu .

9 more days ..

- JuxYouNme

Thursday, March 23, 2006

loadds of things on my mind now ..
hmms ..
now tou tou use com cannot type so muchh ..
not ltr kena caught den die liaos ..
haix ..
today alot things happen lorrs ..
unpleasant ones .
i knew i couldnt bring myself to hate him .
I KNEW i jux COULDNT .
cheer up .
was it so easy .?
he did things to spite me .
i wished i didnt care .
but i jux did .
tolerance .
mayb i wished i didnt noe truth .
mayb then it wouldnt hurt so much .
the things i said .
when i said i hate you .
i knew i didnt mean them .
let time deicide .
i dun wanna care anymore =/

friends were wad we called to be .
but deep inside .
you knew you were not .

cheryl #
missing you baddly x)

- JuxYouNme

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

i cant hide from the truthh ;
and i m tiredd of runningg awayy .
maybe all these jux werent meant to be this wayy .
THRASHED it out .
my feelings . my thoughts .
all thats not mine .
i shaldnt waste anymore time .
all things come to an endd .
nothing lasts forever .
the endinggs are jux wadd i m afraidd of .
i nvr likk the feelingg of endinggs .
whenever each performance ends ;
the crowd claps and dispearsedd awayy ;
tht THOUGHT of being alone again .
i hate it -
the process of holdingg on .
the pain i nvr thught i could endure .
maybe i jux shouldnt waste anymore time on it .
i should jux move on ..

- cheryl .

- jux takk it that we jux werent meant tobe ;
memories were jux the mere illusions from the past .

- JuxYouNme

Thursday, March 09, 2006

jux let everythingg be an illusion ;
i shaldnt live in the memories anyymore ..
when i think bout you now ;
tears were jux all thts left of me ..
the hurt doesnt go away ;
it jux didnt fade away ..
why did i have to love you SO .?
its too much for me to take ..
with each passing moments ..
i feel as if the worlds on my shoulder ..
i nvr regretted the choice i made months back ..
but why did i have to b so indecisive ..
i made tht choice .
and i should stay tht way ..
maybe i m jux thinkingg too much .?
its time i learn to take things easy .

cheryl #

- life sux .

- JuxYouNme

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

wadds so great bout him .?
that he couldd nvr get off myy mind .
imprintedd deep inside my memoryy ;
was his name .
when i see him withh other girls ;
I DUN FEEL JEALOUS .
i felt hurt instead .?
wadd the hell is the worldd coming to .?
jux wad was i thinkingg .
why was the feeling different .
lik how i used to felt .?
life sux .
it jux do .
the way i m living it ;
the way i m dragging it .
its totally waste of my energy to carry on .
so many things to explain ;
so many things i`ve not DONE .
i dun wanna care anymore .
not anymore .
jux let them talk about me .

- she aint wanna live no more ;

[x] cheryl .

- JuxYouNme

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

was life meant to be likk this .?
if it was ;
i`ll jux resign to fate ..
i am tiredd of this ..
all tht i did ; all came to a nought ..
all that you gave ;
you may not get all backk in return ..
those feelings ..
i swear theyy were true ..
i nvr blamedd you ..
i onlyy blame myself ..
it took me so long to forget you ;
and a moment of you i caught starring at me ;
andd all my efforts wouldd b wastedd ..

- thinking bout you no more `

- they jux wernt the perfect ones .

cheryl"

- JuxYouNme

Monday, February 06, 2006

we jux werent mean to be .
pr0miise of luv is gone ;
suddenlyy breathing seems so difficult to do .
let go .
stopp being idecisive .
you luv HUR .
n0rt me .
so jux get lost .

- happyy birthdayy `

cheryl .

- JuxYouNme

Friday, January 20, 2006

lets giv it all up .
its tough being me .
its tiring holding on to smth
i noe tht i will nvr get .
its senseless .
the love is endless ;
but possesion isnt everything .

your heart is no longer here .
so near me .
yet i could nvr feel you there .
do you really love me .?

sweet talkks dun makk up the past .
they jux rackk up the memories ;
and makk everything more unbearable .

we jux wernt tht destined one .
face it -

ilu ;

- cheryl
- so muchh for all tht i gave `

- JuxYouNme

Friday, January 06, 2006

confusion .
she didnt noe wadd to do .
wadds all those things .
comparedd to all those she`ve been thru .
it jux aint the same . n0rt anymore .
at least -
n0rt ferr hur .
shes fallen into a well -
a bottomless pit .
she`ll nvr giv up on euu .
she HATED it .
but she couldd nvr haff hatedd euu .
lost in a worldd of her own .
so manyy in her life ;
yet so little she couldd dependd for .
jux when she neededd euu .
WHERE WERE euu .
on the edge of her wildest dreams .
was to be withh you .
but euu gave her up .
her worldd crashed .
she knew euu werent thru bout hur .
all those lies . all those sweet talkks .
theyy were nth .
nthh was realityy . not withh him .
let time heal everything .
but she still loves him .

- hurWORLD .
dun intrude into myy life .

- JuxYouNme

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

it didnt jux broke into half .
it shatteredd into pieces of uncountable glass .
no one knew wadd it was likk .
the wordds .
the things he saidd .
other ppl wouldd haff been happyy .
but from those wordds .
i knew he wasnt true bout me .
those complicatedd feelinggs .
i dunno if ii still luv hiim .
the pain .
i dunno if ii couldd endure .
ii didnt believe .
wadd otherr ppl saidd bout euu .
but whyy did theyy haff to turn out to b true .
n shatter myy nice image of uu .
it became myy worst nightmare .

- fallen ,
n ii m still fallingg "

- cheryl .
all those tears ``

- JuxYouNme

Monday, November 28, 2005

ii saw euu the otherr dayy. unexpectablyy. ii dunno if ii should laughh or cryy. but ii knew smthh; euu werent jux anyyone down the roadd. ii knew uu werent. myy heart poundedd as if it were to jump out the nxt secondd. at a lost;then. onlyy then; ii realise ur presence causedd suchh a great impact on me. luving euu wasnt wrongg; it was tht ii fell too deeplyy... whyy did ii haff to luv uu so. ii was too naive then; perhaps. ii believedd in everyythiingg uu saidd. includiingg ur sweet talkks. ii shoulddnt haff let euu sweet talkk me. it was a nice feeliingg whenever ii receive ur sms or smthh. at least theres sumone out there that cares. ii was angryy; when uu liedd. emptyy pr0mises were all euu left me withh. suddenlyy; breathingg seems sh0 hardd to do. pr0mise of luv has gone. ai yi ge ren jiu shi xu yao hen duo yong qi. wo jiu shi que shao le yong qi. ai ni ai de tai shen le; wo zhen de zhen de bu xiang ba ni gei wang le. it isnt impossible; but ii hate to feel the pain; again. ii rather jux run awayy. from the painful truthh n act as if nthh has happenedd. ii know ii haff to face the truth again. ii cant run awayy forever. but ii alwayys hope; when tht time comes. euu`ll b right here bside me; going thru everyythingg withh me. its jux nthh but a mere illusion of euu n me. realityy seems sh0 harsh. ii guess ii`ve livedd too longg in the worldd of dreams. but still; euu reallyy mean tht muchh to me. ii dunno how to put it into wordds. reallyy; ii alwayys wishhedd we were tht perfect couple; walkingg down malls hand in handd. suchh a wonderful feelingg. but ii lost euu. ii reallyy cant hangg in there anyy longerr. criedd till myy tears ran dryy; but euu still werent here. how muchh couldd ii haff luvedd uu. ii was true to euu; ii wasnt playiingg withh euu. myy darlingg boy. =x

# cheryl.

- JuxYouNme

Saturday, October 22, 2005

*lols..examms fiinallyy overr liaox...abt a weekk ag0 finishh lerrs...sh0 siianx...n0 hw; nthh tuu studyy; nthh to d0...boredd tuu deathh...ii wanna playy MAPLE...urghhh* the temptatiion`s gona kill mii...lols...ii wan a NEW COM...pls; this time withh a soundd cardd...>.<>

- JuxYouNme

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

whees- examms commingg lerrs...mus studyy.stuDY.n.stil, STUDY.ii hate studyyingg...but stiill okii es larrs...cuz now sch barelyy haff anyy hw...sh0 nthh to do studyy also can waste tiime mahhs...betterr than waste tht sort of tiime thinkkingg n imaginingg thinggs...>.<

ii m totallyy freakkiingg out...withh e stupidd MR YAP. sayy ii act innocent...yarr larr yarr larr ii act innocent lorrs...still sayy ii veryy goodd actress..>.<

happy.hapPY.HAPPY. ii jux wanna b happyy liive e rest of myy liife...siince ii CANT die...no matterr how ii wiishh ii couldd diie this MOMENT. ii dun wanna thinkk boutt` euu. ii dun wanna liive e rest of myy liife havingg an illusiion of us. jux us.its IMPOSSIBLE. but stiill, ii coulddnt withdraw myyselff from euu.haix. iif onlyy ii hadd nv met euu... den mayb thinggs wouldd haff been different...

hao bahhs; st0p here lerrs...nxt tiime den continue...ii wan go studyy n watchh tv lerrs...buai buai - `

- JuxYouNme

Saturday, September 24, 2005

ii criied. even whenn ii noe theyy wun bringg euu backk. ii noe; cuz ii`ve triiedd. ii th0t euu were jux part of myy painful past. but ii know now dat euu werent. euu were alwayys part of mii; alwayys livingg mii. alwayys on myy mindd. ii guess ii reallyy luv euu... sumtimes ii wishhedd ii didnt. den ii wouldd b sparedd from euu. ur luv alwayys pulls me backk; whenenver ii triiedd to accept sumone new. wadds e use of sayyingg all these. when ii know ii m n0rt e onlyy one tht euu will alwayys luv. ii m freakkingg out withh myy life. iit jux sux.

- JuxYouNme

Monday, August 29, 2005

hii...longg longg nv come backk blogg le...den todayy dun feel likk playyingg maple den come blogg lorrx...=) yupps...n0rt reallyy THT muchh thinggs to sayy larrx...jux postingg; kinda ferr e sakke of lettingg euu guyys noe; euu're nv forggotten...heex* ii alwayys thot euu no longer caredd; no longerr botherr; no longer luv me...ii thot its overr...ii alwayys thot this wayy... but ii noe tht's n0rt wadd euu thinkk...euu still care bout me...ii noe it.though euu tryy n0rt to care...at times..but ii can sense it.. ii dunno; if our luv has fadedd...ii reallyy dun... ii dun noe if we shouldd start everyythingg anew... ii reallyy dun..its jux too sudden ferr me to takk everyythingg...mayb ii m thinkkingg to farr; mayb ii m jux to sensitive. but ii've provedd euu wrongg once; tht ii wasnt too sensitive...ii couldd tell there was smthh goingg on between euu n her once.. time; has the power to heal everyythingg n mendd hurts; n the abilityy to makke one FORGET. ii triedd sh0 hardd b`fore ii couldd forget bout euu; n euu're tryyingg sh0 hardd now to mendd everyythingg...the problem ishh; m ii ever worthh it? ii n0rt sh0 goodd as euu thinkk; ii m jux tht average girl euu see on the streets...dun giv up otherr girls jux cuz of a ordinary mie*

ii stoppedd movingg the moment ii th0t tht mayb euu still lurbe me.. ii walkkedd all e wayy backk; to where ii once was; waitingg fer euu...mayb ii made a wrongg decision; but ii'll nv regret... but; dun keep me waitingg... b`fore myy patience run out againn andd walkk on withoutt euu. ` `

___[[ myy.darlingg.boyy.boyy ` `] *___

- JuxYouNme